When I realised university's not gonna be easy
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Currently studying first year at a university as a Computer Scientist, although there is “a bit” more math than I hoped. As expected for Theoretical CS, but it’s still a bit of a shock. Trying to keep up while not neglecting extra activities, mostly surviving. I think. (Therefore I am?)
Been trying my hardest to cut down on time wasted online. Maybe I’m failing, maybe I’m succeeding, I don’t know. I heard it’s good idea to not talk about your goals and just do them. In any case, attempting to do more things with pen & paper.
This is my now page, because it was neat reading others’.
Almost a month after publishing (2024-11-19), “while not neglecting” was replaced to “even at the expense of”, and the light-hearted “Therefore I am” was removed. The expedition was getting desperate.
On 2024-12-06, added an ominous “Less than one month until final exams”, and shortened end of second paragraph which elaborated on feeling a general fatigue with the internet. The now page note was moved to the bottom.
On 2024-12-20, concluded “Mostly surviving. First semester basically over with only exams left”. Provided an example of a journal in the second paragraph, and indeed I was journaling daily at the time.
On 2025-01-03, added this, with a link to backlog inserted 2 days later:
Reading much more books, playing reasonable amount of games. Somehow, the backlog only grows regardless. Miss playing guitar, but don’t have access to one at the moment.
Thinking of beginning the search for a first proper job.
On 2025-01-11 changed ending of first paragraph one last time:
Preparing for - and now taking - the final exams.
Godspeed.